When the open space is in the air, and i am outside...

I have a tough butchlke appearence. I have a good sence of style, I love my hair, and I like to think good thoughts about me, because it helps my self asteem. I like to use a piece of silk like from a summer hoodie, and tickle my hand with it, calling it a nite nite. I suck my thumb. I think if you were beat down, everday of your life,  and had to fight for your life for one solid year just to survive the violence in human behavior? To tell my story. To say hey if you don't stop cutting your going to go to far worst places. Jail, mental institiutions that aren't pretty anmore. Not like when I was locked up at aged 18 in anchora state. I remember each person every person who ever spoke a word in front of me said. I remember ever action. I  remember every reaction. I hope I never forget again, because it's the one thing that keeps me alive. Now may not be so great, but it will be. And I feel it happenning for the positive already. Fake it  till ya make it. I want my freiends.