when the cut is to deep
I'm cut to shreds , I found out new things my ED has done to me ... i go to counseling each week ... I write in my journal here at home ... I have support systems ... but this cut is to deep ... I want to just stop breathing ... my pets are the only reason I keep trodding along ... my best friend could find them homes ... right now ... my woulds which were trying to heal have been opened wide , wide enough to allow me to just let myself bleed out and die ... I took my Xanax , and its slowed my mind down .... the cut is to deep .... talking to people , counselors , Church , is like putting a band aid on a huge wound that wont stop bleeding .... Im so tired ... I just so tired ...
I'm a good person ... a really good person ... but I am ready for God to call me home .... Im tired
I'm a good person ... a really good person ... but I am ready for God to call me home .... Im tired
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You are a good person. God knows your heart. He knows your suffering, your pain. He wants to love you, just receive him. I have been where you are. The situation is not better, but I am better. I have Gods peace and it sustains me. I was on the brink of taking my life. I couldnt bare waking up in the morning and dealing with the heartache and pain. It was never ending. My daughter hurt me so deeply. I had never felt that kind of pain. She still is verbally abusive to me, but I dont let it bother me anymore. I just feel sorry for her, because her heart is so bitter. I pray continously for her, it is all I can do now. Their are so many that are in yours and my shoes with our ec. We have to keep supporting each other. God brought us to this site. God is not finished with us. Rely on him for your strength to continue your journey.
GOD punishes those who do wrong i know who this attention seeking freak is and GOD is not going to help you no one will just like no one ever has you chose your path now your future looks not so good and \"we\" all know who and what you are. GOD punishes those whom attack innocent people and guess what YOUR GOING TO HELL where you belong maybe you also being a wiccan you must follow their laws and you havent wonder how a stupid person like myself knows more about you than you know thats right i have a brain not like you whom lies on ones back to get served by multiple men for his amusement lol your a joke