When is it about me?

I feel like im living my life for others. I feel like I put the needs and wants of everyone else ahead of mine. Im not saying i mind it most of the time, but I need someone to put me first every now and then. And I just dont see it happening. Im wanting to go to church on Sundays, but my husband wont go, and no one else in the house will either. I want it for me. I think I need to get back to God, but why am I letting people keep me from it? I listen to what they say, they dont believe in churches, and my husband just dont like it...but I do. When can they sacrifice an hour of their time to suport me? Im just asking them to try it once for me. I just dont see it happening. I go out of my fucking way for these people. I bend over backwards to do things that make them happy. Im always thnking of them before me. Especially my husband. I always put his wants/needs ahead of my own. How is that fair to me? I want someone to put me first and think of me for once. It may sound selfish, but I dont care. I give and give and give and I dont get shit in return. Its like they take advantage of me and they take me for granted all the time. Im just so sick of it...