When I was at a very low ebb!

   Title.      Do I Deserve Me!?  Will I ever be happyOr always be sad.I'm sat here with nothingWorse than I've ever had. I'm shot down to nothingMy bodies destroyed.With teeth cracked and rottedAnd always annoyed!   Have I been so awfulHave I been so bad?Maybe I just deserve itThrough the shit that I've had. Was it self inflictedThe majority I think.If I wasn't here floatingMaybe I would just sink. But the pain and misfortuneAnd the lack of worthwhile.My brain turned to jellyI forgot how to smile! Was I ever in loveDid I know what it meant?Being caned on intoxicantsWhat I needed was a friend.     Seems like years ago/thank God something in me has changed.      One day at a time.     Who knows>   djharg    ps I hope this poem/lyrics is not too miserable.