whats going on??

I haven't been sleeping well, and I can't figure out why...Been thinking about Mom more and more and just feeling overwhelmed, anxious. ... more so at night, it wakes me up and I am not sleeping at night. So, by day, I am tired. , and that really bothers me. I want to start exercising again and maybe that will give me the energy I need. I joined the group Walk with Me, has given me some motivation to get moving. ... I need to go slowly, I hurt my knee and feel my hernia coming back ( i never had the surgery last year and it seemed to go back in and hasn't caused any discomfort for at least 9 months) but then I go and lift my sleighbed to get the rug out and there you go, I hurt my knee, lower back and feeling a little pain where my hernia was! Stupid I know, my husband got a little angry, but I've asked for 3 months for him to help me and finally couldn't take it anymore. .... NO PATIENCE, i have none these days.  Anyway... I miss my Mom, I miss not talking to my sisters (they are busy with their lives) and I am feeling alone, very alone...  Well, I will bounce back, tomorrow will be better! Much love to all!