WHATEVER-REALLY GOD???

WENT TO HAVE SESSION WITH NATALIE YESTERDay and she thaned me for allowing her to be a part of this ourney through my ungle. i have really no idea what she is taling about though i am willing to accept that this life i have is a source of unhappiness at every uncture. i have tried so hard for yerars to bve  what ever every one elsde wanted and to try to msae sense out of what i thought and others thoufht i should or could or would be.i am feeling the effectd of the heart disease especially today and i am looing forward to not be stuc in this human body . soon i  am going to feel free and be free. i cant control anythinbg around me and i am so tried of being ruled by fear. i am 512 qnd have nothing becausee i haVE CHOSE TO TRY TO RECAQPTURE A childhood dream of the white picett fence and for me that doesnt exist. plz can i be free soon