What If

What if? Today I found myself taking a pregnancy test and I couldn't believe how nervous I was. I mean come on I'm 25 and married but those weren't the reasons why I was terrified. I guess it just got me thinking what if it comes out positive? What if it makes me seem like I'm trying to replace Fleur? What if I'll be a terrible mother this time around?  I don't know and the unknown is terrifying. I know Kyle would be happy but I can't help but wonder how she would feel about having a brother or sister. . .Well maybe it won't be so bad, Fleur was my first and will always have a special place in my heart but I'm sure there's plenty of room for another baby.
Well the test was negative but maybe next time.