" WHAT IF ? "

What if when Penny was born,she hadn't been sick?Would she been normal?What if when she was growing up,would she had been healthy?Would she had no Pain?What if she would have had a sister or brother?Would that made her better?What if she never been Sick?Would she ever had Children?What if I was older when I had her?Would that had made a difference?What if I made better choices for her?Would she had still been living with me?What if I didn't listen to Doctor's?Would she still be here on Earth?I wish I had the answers? Only If We Had More Time ????????????I know I shouldn't say or think "What If" ?But I am feeling Sad Today and don't mean to get anyone down------- just the way I am Feeling!!!!!!!!!!I can't change things!