What you wanted.

Well the kitchen cabinets are finally being done. Brownie wanted them replaced when he was alive. We even got estimates and decided on the style etc.  Then BOOM!!! I lost him. It's been 10 months since I lost him but I am fulfilling his wish. The top cabinets went in today. Oh Brownie, would love them. The ones on each side of the kitchen window are 6 inches wider like he wanted. I had to fight back tears talking to the installer, I knew how pleased Brownie would be If he was here. They will be here working until Friday. I never knew it was possible to miss anyone the way I miss him. Sometimes when I'm alone I scream as loud as I can. I just scream because I'm sad and lonely. Then I cry. No I sob. I sob so hard I can't breath. Then I get myself together and look in the mirror and talk to myself. I say what good did all that do? NONE!!!!! It doesn't change a damn thing. Nothing will. I think I'm crazy. I just pray I get through this. (((Hugs))) to you all. Linda