what to do.
Today I went to work Eric started his job I came home later, and starting packing my apartment up. I would do a few boxes and then cry. I am moving in with my daughter just for awhile.
The whole time,, I am thinking... I should be excited and packing to move with Eric Like we had planned. I dont understand how he goes from wanting me there so bad, to not sure. Everyone don't understand. because NOW he can have want he wanted me living with him, and now he doesn't know.
it's like a cat, watching and wanting that mouse,, finally traping the mouse, and getting it, and playing with it, then decides he's tired of it and just walks away. It feels like.
We've been together for 2 years, which really in LDR isn't that bad. But like I've said..we were making plans.. and jumped ship.
People are wondering if he had been seeing someone, or wanting to see someone while we were together for him to all of a sudden change from wanting us so bad. We were each others lives. We were as one.. we were everything together.. We were the last ones two talk to each other at the end of the night. So it does't make sense. UNLESS he was seeing someone else, OR wanting to.
I love this man. I really do. I know he was being told lies from my neighbors that i was seeing my x husband, but really? he doesn't even know these women. to Believe them or me? He found an e-mail from my xhusband a few months ago , he was saying how he still wanted me . bla bla bla,, but I tried to tell him, that I didn't want him. I had that e-mail because I took it to my counselor to show her and asked her what is the right way to handle this, and I forgot to throw it away, THEN those two women one day when i was work, told him that I was seeing him. These women had it out for me, as I've written before. I am the property manager and they didn't like some of the things that I had to handle with them here. One of them stole my RX right out of my bathroom ! so they knew that if they could tear me and Eric apart.. then that it would hurt me. Boy did they win on that! but it hurts to know that Eric let them.
Anyway.. I am still not seeing anyone OR going to. I hope he isn't becuase I don't know if I could handle that again. I talked to him this morning, and I can still hear it in his voice he loves me. and some of his words. He made a comment that I was going about this the wrong way? Does anyone out there know the right way? I thought you fight for the person you love and make sure that everyday they lay their head down at night..they know they are loved.
I don't know.. I do know that I am a very good partner to be with. I am fun, loving, good to people, romantic, a good listener, friend, lover, hard worker. I know I would be very good for someone, but I really wanted him and I to be the couple.
Well he said tonight after he got off work, he was going to a movie.. he said alone. I would have loved to gone to that movie with him. We both have some different taste in things, but that is what I like.. that we both have things to learn to like or enjoy about the other.
I just wish I would get that call from him, that special call that he wants us to be a couple again,, for life.. Should I hold my breath? I don't know...
My mom got settled in a nursing home today. I feel bad for her, leaving her home, but honestly... I think she is going to do better than me. She still every day would ask if Eric called me, she likes him, she just wishes that he would wake up and stop all this and make this work. He was the only guy I've had in my life that would really show her any attention.. She said tonight. if you and Eric get back together, you guys can come and visit me in here and you can even bring Casey! (his dog) They let you have pets come and visit to.. but she is always thinking of us..
I don't get it. I guess I'll just lay here and watch my hallmark movies and wait to see if he will call. I have tomorrow off, so I guess I will keep packing etc. life...never thought it should be this hard and unhappy.
I wonder what is around the corner for me...wish I could take a peak before I decided to go around that corner this time.
The whole time,, I am thinking... I should be excited and packing to move with Eric Like we had planned. I dont understand how he goes from wanting me there so bad, to not sure. Everyone don't understand. because NOW he can have want he wanted me living with him, and now he doesn't know.
it's like a cat, watching and wanting that mouse,, finally traping the mouse, and getting it, and playing with it, then decides he's tired of it and just walks away. It feels like.
We've been together for 2 years, which really in LDR isn't that bad. But like I've said..we were making plans.. and jumped ship.
People are wondering if he had been seeing someone, or wanting to see someone while we were together for him to all of a sudden change from wanting us so bad. We were each others lives. We were as one.. we were everything together.. We were the last ones two talk to each other at the end of the night. So it does't make sense. UNLESS he was seeing someone else, OR wanting to.
I love this man. I really do. I know he was being told lies from my neighbors that i was seeing my x husband, but really? he doesn't even know these women. to Believe them or me? He found an e-mail from my xhusband a few months ago , he was saying how he still wanted me . bla bla bla,, but I tried to tell him, that I didn't want him. I had that e-mail because I took it to my counselor to show her and asked her what is the right way to handle this, and I forgot to throw it away, THEN those two women one day when i was work, told him that I was seeing him. These women had it out for me, as I've written before. I am the property manager and they didn't like some of the things that I had to handle with them here. One of them stole my RX right out of my bathroom ! so they knew that if they could tear me and Eric apart.. then that it would hurt me. Boy did they win on that! but it hurts to know that Eric let them.
Anyway.. I am still not seeing anyone OR going to. I hope he isn't becuase I don't know if I could handle that again. I talked to him this morning, and I can still hear it in his voice he loves me. and some of his words. He made a comment that I was going about this the wrong way? Does anyone out there know the right way? I thought you fight for the person you love and make sure that everyday they lay their head down at night..they know they are loved.
I don't know.. I do know that I am a very good partner to be with. I am fun, loving, good to people, romantic, a good listener, friend, lover, hard worker. I know I would be very good for someone, but I really wanted him and I to be the couple.
Well he said tonight after he got off work, he was going to a movie.. he said alone. I would have loved to gone to that movie with him. We both have some different taste in things, but that is what I like.. that we both have things to learn to like or enjoy about the other.
I just wish I would get that call from him, that special call that he wants us to be a couple again,, for life.. Should I hold my breath? I don't know...
My mom got settled in a nursing home today. I feel bad for her, leaving her home, but honestly... I think she is going to do better than me. She still every day would ask if Eric called me, she likes him, she just wishes that he would wake up and stop all this and make this work. He was the only guy I've had in my life that would really show her any attention.. She said tonight. if you and Eric get back together, you guys can come and visit me in here and you can even bring Casey! (his dog) They let you have pets come and visit to.. but she is always thinking of us..
I don't get it. I guess I'll just lay here and watch my hallmark movies and wait to see if he will call. I have tomorrow off, so I guess I will keep packing etc. life...never thought it should be this hard and unhappy.
I wonder what is around the corner for me...wish I could take a peak before I decided to go around that corner this time.
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