What To Say, Where To Begin
Wow, where do I begin without rambling senselessly.
I'm battling one whopper of a cold, it will be one week tomorrow. The coughing has been the worst. It's been the type of cough where it's dry & sometimes I almost cough till I gag and/or choke. I haven't been to my GP but I can't see any point in him telling me I've got a spring cold & it has to run it's course. One heck of a squeaky voice too. I just don't know.
My rheumy has reduced my prednisone down to 10mg. I'm still on the methotrexate. But whats putting a twist in this is that since I've had this bug my lupus vasculitis rash is showing it's ugly head, fairly mild, but still showing it's ugly head. I truly do wonder if it's maybe just because of the cold. I just don't know.
Hubby and I had to go to the cancer clinic for his regular prostate check up. His PSA is back up to 10. He had his brachy therapy in Dec 2009. After that his PSA had gone down to 1 then it was up to 5 & now 10. I've a feeling the dr was a bit puzzled abt it as he stated that my hubby had had a top high range treatment or something similar to that. Anyway, now we have to go thru the biopsy again, which, OK take a deep breath Pat, to confirm actual cancer, then I think he said something abt hormone therapy and/or ?????????????where to go from that point I guess.
I don't know what to say to him. I could tell I think he's pissed off, angry, etc. etc. etc. He made a comment like "I thought that treatment was the sure fire thing". I know we need or shd talk but I've no idea how to begin or what to say. Again, I just don't know. LOL.......talk abt stress for my shaky lupus!!!
Why do I feel like crying or screaming or whatever right now. Me, of I thought good faith, solid, grounded, ready to walk bravely etc. etc. etc..............well so much for all of that, at least right at this moment in time.
Anywho, I guess getting these words down in print has got to be a good thing.
Thanks, my friends, for taking time to read this.
I'm battling one whopper of a cold, it will be one week tomorrow. The coughing has been the worst. It's been the type of cough where it's dry & sometimes I almost cough till I gag and/or choke. I haven't been to my GP but I can't see any point in him telling me I've got a spring cold & it has to run it's course. One heck of a squeaky voice too. I just don't know.
My rheumy has reduced my prednisone down to 10mg. I'm still on the methotrexate. But whats putting a twist in this is that since I've had this bug my lupus vasculitis rash is showing it's ugly head, fairly mild, but still showing it's ugly head. I truly do wonder if it's maybe just because of the cold. I just don't know.
Hubby and I had to go to the cancer clinic for his regular prostate check up. His PSA is back up to 10. He had his brachy therapy in Dec 2009. After that his PSA had gone down to 1 then it was up to 5 & now 10. I've a feeling the dr was a bit puzzled abt it as he stated that my hubby had had a top high range treatment or something similar to that. Anyway, now we have to go thru the biopsy again, which, OK take a deep breath Pat, to confirm actual cancer, then I think he said something abt hormone therapy and/or ?????????????where to go from that point I guess.
I don't know what to say to him. I could tell I think he's pissed off, angry, etc. etc. etc. He made a comment like "I thought that treatment was the sure fire thing". I know we need or shd talk but I've no idea how to begin or what to say. Again, I just don't know. LOL.......talk abt stress for my shaky lupus!!!
Why do I feel like crying or screaming or whatever right now. Me, of I thought good faith, solid, grounded, ready to walk bravely etc. etc. etc..............well so much for all of that, at least right at this moment in time.
Anywho, I guess getting these words down in print has got to be a good thing.
Thanks, my friends, for taking time to read this.
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