What to say?

Well I'm not getting any money at the moment so that sucks. But its really my own fault for not finishing my first course. I've now made them doubt, am I truly worthy of having another benefit after not finishing a course?And truly I don't fully blame them, I am quite indecisive, but I really need more money soon, because I need money to go on the train to course in back. So I'm hoping they'll favour me once more with a benefit. Otherwise I will quit the course.Well today I shall be cooking for the meeting tomorrow, (our Sunday lunch) and well maybe knitting and doing this puzzle. Otherwise nothing.