What to Say????
Hello again!! It has been a while since I have journaled, so I thought why not tonite?? For the past couple of weeks I have gone through all of my 24 friends and sent each and everyone a Big Hug, with a little note to go along. I wanted to see how many (if any) would respond??? Well, it turns out that I may have about 4-5 friends that have responded to my hugs. I really wonder what is going on with the other 20 friends I thought I had?? I haven't heard from some of them since before Christmas 2007!!!! I would take this as they are no longer on DS, or they don't check there mail, OR they are not interested in conversing with me any longer?? I am assuming the latter. I am not offended in any way. I just wonder what the heck happened to all of them, are they too sick, are they much better, or they are sooo busy in there everyday lives that they don't have the time to send a hug?? Well, I guess I will hang on to those of you that did not respond for a bit more time...... then it will be DELETE!!! Nothing personal, to any of you, but if I have you on my list as a friend and I haven't talked to you or heard from you any little sign, then I am guessing that you do not care whether you are on my list or not, so don't worry about it. I understand, I think???? As far as my life has been going, well it is day by day. As most of us are. I have and always had constant 24/7 pain!!! My Chronic Fatigue is alot worse now, and my memory is getting lost also. On Monday May 12th Chronic Fatigue Day I had a good time going to my Chronic Fatigue Meeting and seeing about a dozen people I had seen here and there throughout the year, of our monthly meetings. Some I had talked to before and some I hadn't even seen before. I enjoyed this very much! I have been feeling very depressed lately and seem to feel like I needed to use my brain more. I think my brain is bored to tears!! My mind does want to do things, but my body does not let it. I do feel sooo alone alot of the time, even though my husband is home everynite from work now. He is no longer working out of town every week, thank God!! Anyway, when I was at the meeting I started asking the people that were there, What do you guys do all day long??? Did they watch T.V, go onto their computers, talk on phone, get out here and there for a coffee, and of course the Dr,. appts???? Oh, and one more thing, taking naps throughout the day??? I had been feeling like I was the only one that stayed in the house alot and did all of the above. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I am not alone, with what I am doing during the daytime hours!!!! They ALL said the same thing, they did what I do all day!! So, now I know that I am not alone with my bored mind here and there!! They are ALL doing the same as I, just getting by, each and every day, one step at a time!! Now I don't feel sooo alone, and it isn't just me, what do you do???
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Hi there!! have youread my journal?/ i know you do and i also got your hugs..reason I ask is that I have been having problems with feet and swelling..etc..so please dont think if you dont hear from me that I dont care..you knw me better than that i hope..we are friends for life and you are and alwys will be special!! My advise to you is to trim your list..I do tha every so often...just look at who you hear from and take into consideration those that are really doing poorly..the rest delete. If they want back..they will let you know! Love you...going to take a shower...then bed...I really need to call you soon...but I am either sleeping..or at the doctors which sometimes is an all day thing..uuuurrrrgggg!!! xoxoxoxoxox