what to do to get better

Today I woke up very late. Every time I wake up I think I have to go working and I think I don't like my job and I have nothing good or important to do there. I feel like it's an empty place, it gives no meaning to my life. So, at the end, I stay in bad snoozing and trying to sleep a little bit more.

I am trying to think I have to wake up early not for my job, but for myself. I have to do it, to put my plans of life in action like studying, although right now I don't feel really motivated about it. Why I don't feel motivated about studying?

- I have this feeling that most things I have to study at university are useless.

- I feel I am awful in some disciplines, even though I had good grades in some of them.

- I don't feel like I can handle more two years and a half of classes, feel tired.

- Those classes are not exactly in the area I like, although it can give me a job in my area.

I just remembered that the other time I was depressed, what helped me was walking close to nature. Being close to nature somehow makes me feel better. I have many things to do for university classes, but maybe I could take a walk today.

I live by myself so sometimes I find it difficult to eat properly. Today I had no breakfast, I was late to work because I preferred to sleep than eat. But this is bad because when I spent too many hours without eating I start to feel pain.

I think I should organize myself to put eating (organizing myself to buy things and eat in the right time), exercise and do personal care (beauty stuff). I feel a little overwhelmed about handle everything because I work 6 hours a day and at most of nights I have classes.