What to do

well, once again .. the same type of fights just a different night, screams, yells, calls me down to the lowest than try's to force me into a situation that I have no interest in anymore. I don't even know who he is anymore, a stranger in my home. How is one suppose to act ok when all you do is tell her how much you hate her, wish you never met her etc... when you start drinking before anyone even out of bed until you pass out before supper, our kids don't even know you and you don't know our kids! How is it when you have drinking our last cent away and I have nothing to give you is that my fault? You have taken everything and we have lost everything because of you, you punch holes in the walls and throw stuff at me, punch the car windows if I'm inside and drop you off cause of your drinking. This is no life why can't you see that? 27 years old and not allowed to talk to anyone no matter how long people have been in my life, not allowed to follow my dreams and career because why? There might be a male in passing, or because my days would not consist of bowing down to you? .. I put my kids first and you flip out, what kind of man and father are you. Is this what you really want for your children