What The Heck was HE thinking?

I tell you i have been going through an emotional rollercoaster these past few days. I came to the conclusion i must be in the grieving stage. Not regretting marriage ending just the fact that it didnt work out if that makes sense. My stomach is in knots even now. Yesterday i blew up at him because h trying to play the helpless card ", guess i'll have to live in hotel for year "blah,blah,blah Guess what? I fell for it but not in the way he had hoped. I started looking for places for him to stay (problem solved) Today I went on his site? page? whatever you call it and pulled up his history onlinebootycall.com the last thing he looked at LAST NITE YA'LL! Boy i dont know what im feelin now. mad, pissed, just tripping! He doesnt know i can get to his history or h would have deleted. I am going to kick his (i want to say it but you get the point) butt. Because of this little tid bit,My baby boy told me last nite daddy loves you mommie . HE WENT TOO FAR! DONT MESS WITH MY BABBIES! Wait til tonight (i probably wont will try to though) He thought he could dish it out that low down not good son of a biscuit eater doesnt know HOW to do it right . I got this. Im gonna show him how to play a mind game You want to test me? mess with me? after i give you all the love,affection,trust and 3 beautiful children. Then you have the nerve to TRY to use them OH HEEELL NAW!!!!!!!!! Im soooo pissed soooo done man and he just called sounding all hurt and crap. man ump,ump,ump. Ya'll he just dont know, im loosin' it here. I mean really loosin' it. He GOTTA GO If he cant find a place find a hole but if he has any sense he'll stay the H away from me. Ya'll im so mad im crying and smilin', man he put my babies in this NO! I dont think so. Sorry just realize im gettin too hot for my own good. I will breath deeply and just enjoy my new game :)' I've always admitted to being a little crazy. I kinda like crazy today (crazy not stupid) Bye for now.