what the heck?!! (long entry & RANT)

Mondayi go to urgent care and show them my R leg... the doc starts pokin around like "does it hurt here? how about this?" and she hit a few spots that were pretty darn painful! anyway, she said that i pulled a muscle in the back of my thigh all the way down to the ankle.and that the vein that were buldging out were outer vericose so i don't have to worry about them. but they still hurt so i'm not that relieved.they ace wrapped my whole leg pretty much. after a few days, i'm not sure i like these ace wraps. they are pretty darn annoying! so yeterday i went looking for support hose but didn't find any. got a tip from someone that i may be able to find em at walmart, so today i will check it out. Tuesdayi had an appt with my new rheumatologist. i'm not real fond of the guy, honestly. he was telling me that i needed to work out Every Day, even if it hurts and that i have to force my self. but the last time i tried that, it hurt worse and worse till my muscles didn't want to do anything, and then i was getting fm flares right and left! i tried telling him about it but he didn't want to hear it. anyways, i brought up to him the concern of my high h/r and that my cardiologist wants me off the effexor. i wanted to wait till my asthma meds got adjusted 1st but he said that we will go ahead and take me off effexor anyway, and switch it out with cymbalta. blahh! i'm not excited about it at all. i also told him about the case i'm fighting with the VA for compsation for fibromyalgia. that i needed him to go over my records with me and help pull out where it says symptoms, that he may think are linked to fms. he only went over a few pages with me and pointed out that i had a lot of stomach issues back in 2002. hmm that's also when i started having head aches and jaw pain. it was also noted in one of the entries that i was sleep deprived. and all this time, i thought i didn't have any symptoms till 04. but i guess the guy form the American Legin was right after all, that it may have something to do with what i was exposed to at the Pentagon crash sight. ans especially since i was working there post 9/11 for the next year! wow.... good thing this doc noticed some crucial stuff. so he will make an etry in my record that the symptoms may have began back then and what to look for. i really hope i win this case!after i came home from the appt, i crashed for the rest of the day. i was so exhousted!and then after i woke up for dinner and ate... Ricky (the one renting the 4th bdroom) asked me to watch a movie with him. so i agreed. i'm sorry i did cuz he went all nuts trying to prove his point about muslims and beards! and uh, i grew up in a muslim country, so how can you argue with me?? but of course he wanted to and tried getting me to believe somehting he read on the net versus what i saw with my own eyes! wtf! anyway, every time i tried walkin away, he sucked me back into the argument. AND THEN HAD THE BALLS TO TRY TO CONVINCE SONNIE (my younger bro whose also a former Marine) AND ME THAT OSAMA BIN LADIN WAS MADE UP! AND THAT 9/11 WAS A FAKE AND WAS MADE UP BY THE GOVERNMENT! HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT TO SOMEONE (ME) WHO WAS AT THE PENTAGON <<AT THE CRASH SIGHT??!!! and this is coming from an ex army guy! but he got out like 13 yrs ago at a time of peace, so i guess he has no idea! Wednesdayi finally slept in! after i got up and ate breakfast, Ricky comes down and tells me wants to talk to me some more when i get a chance. oh great now what?! after burning some more dvds of my Olelo recording, going to the beach, then to the dentist to get my crown... i finally ask him what it is. he tells me that he didn't apreciate the the comments i made lastnight, bla bla bla. ARE YOU FREEAKIN KIDDING ME?! IT'S ME THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SAYING THAT!!! then he HAS THE BALLS TO ASK ME WHAT SIDE I AM ON! "WTF?" i asked him. and he said that i sound like i WANT TO BE A TERRORIST!!! WTF!!!! all because i made a comment about how pretty a jordanian guys eyes were that was on the movie! i told him that he was so far gone it's not even funny! and then he proceedes to tell me that because HE eats beef, that we won't and we are just tryin to fuck with him! he knows i can't eat beef because of my IBS! and i told him this long time ago! ok that's it!!! i told him that if he can't get his mind straight, then he needs to move the fuck out!! cuz i can't have him jumpin on peoples backs for the stupidest shit that has nothing to do with him!! AND HOW DARE HE SAY SUCH DUMB SHIT ABOUT 9/11!!! stupid ignorant fuck!! He said "who gives a shit about the Pentagon?! that was like on 01! no one cares about that!!"WTF!!? HOW CAN YOU SAY SUCH SHIT?!! i told him that he can have his delutions! but if he can't get his minds straight then move out! all of a sudden last night he calls me (i guess he left the house after i yelled at him) and tries to apologies. i told him that i didn't feel like hearing it and maybe we will talk about it tomorrow. i was so damn upset and shaking. i was afraid that if i spoke to him, i would fly off the wall and end up bashing his freakin skull in! and Lord knows we don't need that. i don't wanna go to jail.  well thanks for reading the Whole thing... it's long and i'm sorry about it. i just had to post about this cuz it ate me alive. thanks for being there... you all are so awesome. God bless! oh and please, any advice i would apreciate!