What the Future Holds?
Today is April Fool's Day. Instead of trying to play a prank or joke on a member of my family, my mind wanders to the thought that my feeling well could be an April Fool's joke. I am due to see the oncologist on Monday. As the day approaches I begin to analyze how I feel, or should I say analyze more often how I feel. Being only 7 months out of treatment there is not a day that goes by that I don't worry about an ache or pain that I have. I still have sore areas under my arm, in my breast and even my back. It gets hard to decipher what's a good pain or a bad pain. Maybe I can't decipher.
This week is our spring break and I spent the week painting my daughter's bedroom. I was glad I was able to do it for her. I hope it is something she can be proud of me for and if something happens to me she'll know I did it for her. I'm rambling a little, but the reason I brought up painting was because during spring break last year I attempted to paint our guest room. I was so tired of being tired, that I thought if I had a project I would feel better. It was on exhausting process. I compare how I feel now and what I felt a year ago. I am so much better. I can't even believe I was able to paint last year. I remember how sore my body was from the chemo and being on my feet and up and down a ladder was awful.
So compared to last year at this time, I am awesome. It's frustrating not knowing. Will the doctor want to run tests once I tell her about my "new pains"? If she does, what will the tests show? When I was about to have the lumpectomy I was fairly certain I was going to be diagnosised with cancer. I have that sinking feeling again. I'm just not that confident that I am okay.
So if you could keep me in your prayers I will be ever so grateful and I will do the same for all of you. I wish you all a Blessed Easter and a renewal of spirit as Spring begins. Chris
This week is our spring break and I spent the week painting my daughter's bedroom. I was glad I was able to do it for her. I hope it is something she can be proud of me for and if something happens to me she'll know I did it for her. I'm rambling a little, but the reason I brought up painting was because during spring break last year I attempted to paint our guest room. I was so tired of being tired, that I thought if I had a project I would feel better. It was on exhausting process. I compare how I feel now and what I felt a year ago. I am so much better. I can't even believe I was able to paint last year. I remember how sore my body was from the chemo and being on my feet and up and down a ladder was awful.
So compared to last year at this time, I am awesome. It's frustrating not knowing. Will the doctor want to run tests once I tell her about my "new pains"? If she does, what will the tests show? When I was about to have the lumpectomy I was fairly certain I was going to be diagnosised with cancer. I have that sinking feeling again. I'm just not that confident that I am okay.
So if you could keep me in your prayers I will be ever so grateful and I will do the same for all of you. I wish you all a Blessed Easter and a renewal of spirit as Spring begins. Chris
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