What the Future Holds?

Today is April Fool's Day.  Instead of trying to play a prank or joke on a member of my family, my mind wanders to the thought that my feeling well could be an April Fool's joke.  I am due to see the oncologist on Monday.  As the day approaches I begin to analyze how I feel, or should I say analyze more often how I feel.  Being only 7 months out of treatment there is not a day that goes by that I don't worry about an ache or pain that I have.   I still have sore areas under my arm, in my breast and even my back.  It gets hard to decipher what's a good pain or a bad pain.  Maybe I can't decipher.
This week is our spring break and I spent the week painting my daughter's bedroom.  I was glad I was able to do it for her.  I hope it is something she can be proud of me for and if something happens to me she'll know I did it for her.  I'm rambling a little, but the reason I brought up painting was because during spring break last year I attempted to paint our guest room.  I was so tired of being tired, that I thought if I had a project I would feel better.  It was on exhausting process.  I compare how I feel now and what I felt a year ago.  I am so much better.  I can't even believe I was able to paint last year.  I remember how sore my body was from the chemo and being on my feet and up and down a ladder was awful.
So compared to last year at this time, I am awesome.  It's frustrating not knowing.  Will the doctor want to run tests once I tell her about my "new pains"?  If she does, what will the tests show?  When I was about to have the lumpectomy I was fairly certain I was going to be diagnosised with cancer.  I have that sinking feeling again.  I'm just not that confident that I am okay.
So if you could keep me in your prayers I will be ever so grateful and I will do the same for all of you.  I wish you all a Blessed Easter and a renewal of spirit as Spring begins.  Chris