what the fuck is the fucking point?

why the fuck do i even fucking bother.
all ive ever tried too fucking do is too be there for other people, too help other people... ive never gave a fuck about myself, ive always put other people first.. never ever thought about myself and what i need.
and now my exs sister fucking does this.
is she taking the fucking piss?
shes text me tonight saying...
" you might need my love when your rotting in your coffin cause no one will visit your grave unless its too shit on it... you had my brother wrapped round your finger when you were together and now my cousin is defending you.. is that not enough? fuck off you dirty fat slag. i hope you rot in hell you nasty bitch. your a fucking whore. go and die you suicidal bitch.. you dont deserve too be a mum cause youd probably cut your own child up thats why you had a miscarriage"
thats how much of a heartless fucking bitch she fucking is!
i'd never ever do that too my child...
okay ive made mistakes and i selfharm but too a child! no! it would never happen, just the thought of it makes me feel physically fucking sick.
not only that i feel pathetic cause shes 14!
shes 14 and shes making me feel like this, shes belittling me!
how fucking unfair is that!
i fucking hate this!
for anyone too think im capable of harming a child i must befucking bad eh?
well ya know what im gonna give her what she wants! im gone!