what the fuck 4-2-08

why is it just when you start feeling better in all this  shit. The other one wants to talk and everthing you do is percieved as trying to fix things no matter what I do it is that im trying to fix things. Everthing that I have done in the past keeps getting throw back in my face, things like calling at 3 or 4 in the morning after she has gone out with friends just to make sure that she is ok,right FUCK NO I MUST HAVE BEEN CHECKING UP ON HER, or if you go to a certin place to study and the place CLOSES AT 11 ANS ITS 2 IN THE MORNING, the place that she had gone to study had had a woman  RAPED AND BEATIN 2 DAYS PRYIER. no matter what I do its not going to be good enough for anything I like do want the fuck you need to do if you feel that is going to make you happy then do just FUCKEN DO IT.  I told her that I feel that if she leaves the house that she Is never coming back, but you  know what I WILL BE FINE!!!!!!