What the f@&k!
I'm supposed to feel better by now. I'm supposed to look better by now. I'm supposed to not think about him anymore. And why the heck can't I move on with my life. I have a Masters degree , And beautiful children and yet I still feel some type of in adequacy. Do we all go through that. All the those who go through a divorce? And how long does this BS last. Is it only women who need closure? I can't stand him. I hate feeling vulnerable Dang!
please excuse my language. Feeling crumby today! But productive.
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Pheonix, I think you're right on a lot of personal feelings are still tied to ex and a sense of did we do enough? Was there something I should have done different? Endless supply of questions for our own adequacy since WE are the only ones to answer to. You're doing right in the way that recognize what you're feeling.
I want to be done with that chapter of my life. Thank you for responding to my post, ghostdancer. I think I'm more jealous. That's not the right word. Almost like envious that he has been able to marry and start a family. Or resume a Husbsnd role in a family scenario. Do I think he's changed? No. It's only a matter time before he goes back to his old ways. But why should I even care. I need to cut a tree on my own self and where I'm going. Yet, I find myself going back there.