What's up

Some current things happening with me. Getting into reading an author who was a person I knew, not knowing he was a well known author.  He was my friend and aquaintance and he committed suicide in depression over a year ago.  I am ispired to read his stuff feel loss.  He is one of those people who have passed who I keep in my prayers. My friend from program, we've been emailing for a year and she suddenly stopped.  I dreamed I cried about it last night, and said my feelings are hurt. She didn't always respond.  I guess it meant a lot to me and I guess I need to bring it up somehow, mention it.  We started doing some Al Anon stepwork together and have not been able to get together lately, and I felt discouraged.  She called to say she wants to commit to it.  I realize I get stuck in what I'm not getting instead of looking at what I could be giving. Car stalled today.  Maybe it's related to the rain, but I doubt it.  So off to the mechanics and time to rearrange my schedule / plans to go about my days ahead. I'm still doing yoga every AM, and seem to be eating a little better.  I miss going to the gym, it's been a while.  I have a couple guys in AA seem interested in me - I want to date people I'M interested in. My coworker and I got together for dinner during our vacation and now he wants to move to the area of work / where I live, and I started feeling overwhelmed like he was putting pressure on me to be a companion.  I wrote my frustrations out and put them in my God Box.  I did the same last night w/ general stuff and it helped me sleepa lot better than the night before.