What's wrong with me

I feel so numb all the time. I haven't cried over my son in two days. I miss him terribly and I want him back so badly, but I don't convey that with my emotions right now. The past few days I have kept so busy running all over town with Jonny trying to keep him occupied. I've been working so hard with different vendors on different projects I'm planning. I'm negotiating with decal manufacturers to make 500 car decals to hand out to our Jarrett's Law supporters...I'm also working with Safety First  to get 9 car seats donated to Jarrett's Law, so we can give them out to 9 needy families before Jarrett's balloon memorial ceremony at the cemetery on his birthday. Hopefully we can potentially save 9 lives in his name.  I'm also in the middle of selling my house...the fast way. We offered up my $83,000 home at the cost of closing out my mortgage $67,000, under the condition that they take it as is, cover the closing costs and can have us out of our home in 30 days! So far I have two potential buyers..and another showing on Saturday...Jonathan has been having major behavior issues, I have an appt with our pediatrician today at 11, so we can get a refferal for a child psychologist...I'm really worried he's been beyond traumatized by this whole ordeal. We have the Jeff Dunham concert tomorrow with our friends...its amazing how three months ago I was so excited for this night out with our closest friends watching my favorite comedian...and now I don't even want to go! But the money has been paid, the babysitter has been booked and my friends have been looking forward to it for months, so I guess I'm going..