What's to come?

I was diagnosed with CLL after a routine blood test showed an extremely high white count.  I was referred to an Oncologist immediately and had more definitive tests done that confirmed CLL.  Initially, my primary care physician called me at work and told me that my white count was extremely high and was referring me to an oncologist stat.  This was on a Friday prior to a long weekend.  Her final words to me were, "I'm worried about a leukemia".  OMG.  Needless to say it was the worst weekend of my life and my families.  I didn't know what kind of leukemia and of course looked it up on line.  There are so many types and most are terrifying.  I currently have no symptoms and have to go back and see him in 3 months.  After 55 years of being a happy, easy going, not easily depressed person I find myself depressed and worried about what is to come.  Since this is the mildest form of the disease everyone was relieved.  I know that I have cancer and it is scaring the heck out of me.