What's this thing called change.

Sweetheart,
If I leave your coffee cup on the counter right where you left it nine months ago will you come back and share a cup of coffee with me.
If I leave your coat on the hook by the door will you put it on when the weather turns cold again.
If I continue to get your Lancaster Farmer subscription will you come home and read it again.
As the kids and I are making progress with the plans that you and I made together for our future the sunsets on a different picture of our farm.  I like the progress but am so heartbroken that you are not here to see it with me, to share it with me, to be proud of the accomplishments with me.
This week the boys got the 655 running, it operates so smoothly and leaves both the hay crop and the fields in beautiful condition.  You would be so happy to drive it, now Justin wants one for his farm, too.  :)  Flambeau red paint runs in their veins too.  Like father, like son.
This weekend I painted the brooder house and have half of the new chicken house painted.  They really look nice, the grainery will be next.  We are painting them barn red (remember the buckets of paint I came home with) and will paint the trim white. 
I love you sweetheart, and until we once again can walk hand in hand I will be blowin' kisses to heaven.
Loved you yesterday, love you today, will love you for always,.
P
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lovelos
lovelos

Know your dear husband is so proud of you......life is so hard without them but know he is smiling down on you my friend.......knowing that he was loved and continues to always be a part of what has made you the special person you are today, Hugs Lu Ann
cadoggiemom
cadoggiemom

How much you miss your husband shows in every word you write. It sounds as though you shared a lovely life together, and that usually corresponds to the depth of loss we feel when a loved one passes. I am sad for your pain and your daily missing of your life partner and yet I envy the relationship you had with him. Not all of us are as blessed.
ToddiesGirl
ToddiesGirl

Polly:
I hope I can someday feel like doing things Charlie and I had planned around here. I have been content to just try to keep it at least as good as it was. You are so involved with your farm, I\'m proud of you.
Our farm equipment is all red too. Charlie also collected IH tractors - there are thirty of them in the shed.

Julie
Nicker07
Nicker07

I so remember those type feelings - alas one day I decided those things made me wish for things I could not have....but I always have our good memories of our good times.....

You sound like your farm keeps you busy - and you still enjoy it....I think he is there all around you and I know its hard not being there physically.

I enjoy my 5 acre ranchette and horses still...it keeps me young
HUGS
Nicker07
Nicker07

I so remember those type feelings - alas one day I decided those things made me wish for things I could not have....but I always have our good memories of our good times.....

You sound like your farm keeps you busy - and you still enjoy it....I think he is there all around you and I know its hard not being there physically.

I enjoy my 5 acre ranchette and horses still...it keeps me young
HUGS
deleted_user
deleted_user

I know your DH must be with you all the time. How proud he must be that you are carrying on with the plans both of you had. I know it must be so hard, but you are doing it - for yourself and for him.

Peace and love,
Barbara
deleted_user
deleted_user

What a love life you two must have had. It also shows what a team you were together. We are so fortunate to have loved and been loved by such wonderful men, also to be the Mothers of such loving and helpful children. Mine just left after trimming all the trees and cleaning the garage for me. What would we do without them?
deleted_user
deleted_user

Forgot to ask you to let me know if he comes to drink coffee with you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

What a beautiful legacy he has left in you and your children...