What's The Point
I'm feeling pretty worthless...again. I don't have anything to offer my family, my friends--anybody. I ought to be use to this by now. You would think that after 10 years I would have figured this chronic pain stuff out, but sitting alone again while everyone else has a great time is getting old. I know everybody's busy. They don't have time to waste on me. I can't keep up at all. I can stand all of 5 minutes, and on a good day I can walk about 10 feet before crumbling. I just get in everybody's way. So I just sit here and watch my family go about their day, full of happiness and not even noticing me. I guess I've become invisible. They're so use to seeing me do nothing that they don't even realize I'm here. I want to jump up and down and scream HEY REMEMBER ME? I USE TO LIVE HERE... I USE TO BE A PART OF THIS FAMILY...I USED TO BE SOMEBODY!!!! Now I don't know. I just don't know.