What's Going On? It's Going to Be Okay!!

I appreciate this forum immensely. I use this journal to vent, highlight and catalogue my experience with DDD. At present I am experiencing new unknown pain and, I quote Dorothy Parker I believe..." What fresh hell is this?". It's hard enough to deal with the usual DDD stuff on a daily basis, but up the ante by adding a new pain, a sharp nerve pain and what feels like bone pain too? Please give me a break...I mean that truly...please! I see my doctor on April 10th...must hold out and manage according to the six week protocol in place. Aleve is just not doing it for me. I try ice, heat, self-massage, rest, walking....arggh. Nothing is working for very long. I'm on Gabapentin again...unable to leave my home alone due to the short term memory loss and vision issues it gives me. I once got lost on my way home on the freeway...crying and swiping tears from my eyes I pointed the car in what I thought was the correct direction and hoped to recognize something...anything. I'm sure stress level on top of the med was a factor, but needless to say I do NOT want a repeat. So, I languish at home, reliant now on others to take me places. It doesn't happen often due to the now lack of friends.  I have my few friends but they are true blue...just quite busy with their own families and many acquaintances. I have learned to fill my excessive free time with other things, like reading and my Goodreads reviews. It helps. Books were my only friends as a child so I feel a little like I did then. Oh, I railed against the isolation that is DDD at first, most do. It does no good, doesn't change a thing about my condition. Thus I surrendered, first to God, then to this disease. In surrender, I found comfort knowing I'm not alone in the world. I am loved by God. This disease is not pleasant but I can be a vessal, used to help and support others I pray. I know what DDD will do to me in the future to some extent but I can't know how rapid the decline will be. Comparing myself to another patient doesn't work, for many factors are at work; age, prior conditions, past history of...well anything at all; knowledge of doctor, care team availability, support of friends and family... I can only trust God to be with me through it all, comforting me, providing me with monetary and emotional needs. I think, as I reflect on what I have now...that's a good place to be. DDD won't beat me unless I allow it to do so.