What's new
It has seemed like a lifetime since I wrote in my journal.
So what's new is I am still living on my own since my partner and I went our own ways almost 2 years ago now. We stayed friends and decided to try again and live apart. He has custody of his son who just turned 14. He is a lazy shit but a nice kid otherwise.
I think it's his ex-wife who is the main issue in our relationship. He'll do anything for her and stand me up. She was a monster during their time apart and the custody battle. But she has changed according to him and is a better person. As I see it she is plotting her next move to find something she can do to ruin him. Nobody changes that fast. If she changed at all she would tell him the truth and apologize for the way she left him in the first place. Then she tries to cry because he is with a man now. Just like before.
Rob says so many thing I don't know how much I can trust him but I try to see the positive, whatever that is. I get just as confused as before. I just know I love him but I don't know if we will ever grow.
Other than all that I feel better mentally since my last entry. I have had some serious moments recently but I am good non the less. I have nothing to do with my days and wish I had some local friends. I still keep people at arms length because of the fear to get close. Too many people think I am to weird to be a friend so I feel the loss when they end the friendship. I guess I am still screwed in the head. After reading this I wonder if anything has got better after all . So I will stop for now until I have something that sounds a bit more solid.
So what's new is I am still living on my own since my partner and I went our own ways almost 2 years ago now. We stayed friends and decided to try again and live apart. He has custody of his son who just turned 14. He is a lazy shit but a nice kid otherwise.
I think it's his ex-wife who is the main issue in our relationship. He'll do anything for her and stand me up. She was a monster during their time apart and the custody battle. But she has changed according to him and is a better person. As I see it she is plotting her next move to find something she can do to ruin him. Nobody changes that fast. If she changed at all she would tell him the truth and apologize for the way she left him in the first place. Then she tries to cry because he is with a man now. Just like before.
Rob says so many thing I don't know how much I can trust him but I try to see the positive, whatever that is. I get just as confused as before. I just know I love him but I don't know if we will ever grow.
Other than all that I feel better mentally since my last entry. I have had some serious moments recently but I am good non the less. I have nothing to do with my days and wish I had some local friends. I still keep people at arms length because of the fear to get close. Too many people think I am to weird to be a friend so I feel the loss when they end the friendship. I guess I am still screwed in the head. After reading this I wonder if anything has got better after all . So I will stop for now until I have something that sounds a bit more solid.
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