what is this life?

Another yr passing, another birthday missed, anoher summer w/out you..Time hasnt healed all wounds, time has taken some of the sting out but the pain remains , hidden beneith the surface, only to rise up unanoounced, but somhow , I go on, somehow I get thru each day, I see so much pain in your Dads eyes, I feel so much pain in my heart..it just never ends..I dont think our bodies are capable of crying like before so we just hold it in until we cant anymore and explode...Wish I could wake up from this...miss you Ash so much....love you so much, you are forever in my heart....