What is normal?
So, I woke up feeling good. Normal really. But the longer I am up the more tired I get. It makes me wonder, what is normal anyway? I sometimes dream that I am running or moving about freely. Oh, it is so good. In my dreams I do not labour over each step. Will there come a day on this earth where I will once again move freely? Not that I am not grateful for the movement I still have. I truly am. And I am hopeful that I will be healed, that there might be a remission, and that I can regain strength and mobility. I miss the life I used to lead this morning. I am happy anyway. I just remember feeling like I could do anything. Sometimes I feel like I can't do anything these days. But that is untrue. I just have to do less. I find that hard. I have grand plans and I can't follow through on them as I desire. I went to the craft store yesterday. I am planning on making my husband a gift for Christmas. He brews beer. I want to make a custom beer sign. Goldleaf design with his logo. Anyway, I got a bunch of stuff to start, and I was to tired to do anything after shopping. And shopping took 3 hours. I am so slow. Then I couldn't go grocery shopping or do laundry. Oh well! In any case it is beautiful outside, not to hot, and an easy day of teaching. And I am finished Wednesday at noon. With a 4 day weekend, maybe I will get things done. Or maybe I will loaf :-)
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