What if its not enough...

Its been nearly two weeks since my man was taken to jail. He is being housed in a holding facility about thirty minutes from me until his sentencing. I am completely overwhelmed and consumed with this. Crying at all hours of the day and night. Morning just brings more pain. I just want to sleep so the time will go faster. I won't have to think about the pain and I won't have to feel anything. I wish I was in that movie where they put you in a cryo chamber for many many years. I can't remember the name of the movie but you are in there for years until they dethaw your body and you can live again. As young as you were when they put you in the cryo chamber. That would be better than living this endless painful bliss. Today I have no hope. I have no interests. I am working just because I made a promise. I'm not accomplishing much today. Tomorrow I hope is better. Today I can't do this. I just need to see him so badly. I need to hear his voice. Something! Anything.... Tomorrow he gets his supplies... I hope that will start the letters coming. He talked to me a few minutes on Sunday and said he'd be sending a long letter. I hope I get it this time. They lost or didn't send one of my letters. That had the application I needed! One person means so much that it stops time for me. One person can utterly make life hopeless. How is it that he has such power to make me completely helpless? I'm no use to him or myself lately... I'm just so emotional its driving me mad!