What I want?

My S.O recently asked me what sort of packer I wanted them to get..and zhe wanted my opinions and everything, but I don't know what I want..she always wants to know what I think or what I like and it's difficult because she cares so much but no one's ever cared about me like this before so I don't know how to want.  She's being so patient and I feel so bad about it. I don't know if I deserve her. I just want to be normal already.