What I need to do to make it
So I see we got a letter from the bank along with a registerd one we have to go sign for. I don't even need to read it because it will be a notice to forclose on our house, I know I have been given hard from the heart advice and from members who want the best for me. The problem is that when I get married it is for life and take the goood with the bad. It is so easy for others to say dump the bitch and it would end my stress.
I have a problem putting my wife in jail and as being the payee my house payments should be made, when I ask I'm told it is none of my business. The last time I was at the bank they gave me a card to a good lawyer and said they would work one more time if I got divorced, hard to do if you were raised Baptist. What many people including my wife don't understand how much I love her and this just eats me alive. I've filled countless papers for the lawyers to read but really how many out there with a straight head would say they would put ther wife in jail and I mean honestly.
I will say I'm scared to death to be alone but on the other hand we have only been intimate twice in a year and I have the MS and the needs. She has showed me I don't need sex and am good with that, did it all when I was younger but would just love to have someone say to me I love you and not want money or something else, maybe I'm being selfish.
I want to sit my wife and daughter down and let them know I'm looking for a land contract ,has to be ccheaper tha the $1000 a month my payments are now, but on the other hand I have a problem hurting someone and I don't care who it is.
I was looking at land comntracts today and when I got home I was grilled about calls and wher I was, I just said do I ask where the F you go and got sly remarks and I was actually at her moms asking for guidance. I don't know what to do, my wife is playing chicken with the second mortgage and thinks they can't forclose, what a dumbass.
She let her adult kid move back in rent free, just take it from my SSDI check, and I went 3 months without scripts till I sold some tools to [ay for them. I could go on and on but it is depressing me so bad and I want to sit them down tomarrow and let them know if there playing chicken with the bank I'm looking for a place to stay even if it is assisstant living, only I have some big tools worth a lot of money I wanted too give my kids so they can start thier own business.
I'm just totally convinced the stress has been bringing me to my kness's and I can't live like this anymore. I just wish I had someone to say I love you and want to take care of you if things go bad. I wish I had'nt taken my vows so seriously but that is just me and I wonder why me.
I hope I have what it takes to set them down and let them know I'm looking out for me and a home for me without them as I don't need them they need me. It is sad they both work part time making good money and I still make more than them combined and they want me to look for something part time. there is so much more to this but I'm getting tired and will once again pray to God for direction and have the backbone to talk and leave seeing as my SSDI check is not being spent on me and housing but as a party check as I lay here and am losing my house. I can only pray one of my kids will call adult protective services and get me a case worker. I just hate me right now and wonder where I lost my will to live anymore as I've seeded to tell everyone of the mind and money abuse I suffer everyday of my life. Some day will shine on me or me and nevermind will happen. Be good everyone and may you never endure what I haave been
I have a problem putting my wife in jail and as being the payee my house payments should be made, when I ask I'm told it is none of my business. The last time I was at the bank they gave me a card to a good lawyer and said they would work one more time if I got divorced, hard to do if you were raised Baptist. What many people including my wife don't understand how much I love her and this just eats me alive. I've filled countless papers for the lawyers to read but really how many out there with a straight head would say they would put ther wife in jail and I mean honestly.
I will say I'm scared to death to be alone but on the other hand we have only been intimate twice in a year and I have the MS and the needs. She has showed me I don't need sex and am good with that, did it all when I was younger but would just love to have someone say to me I love you and not want money or something else, maybe I'm being selfish.
I want to sit my wife and daughter down and let them know I'm looking for a land contract ,has to be ccheaper tha the $1000 a month my payments are now, but on the other hand I have a problem hurting someone and I don't care who it is.
I was looking at land comntracts today and when I got home I was grilled about calls and wher I was, I just said do I ask where the F you go and got sly remarks and I was actually at her moms asking for guidance. I don't know what to do, my wife is playing chicken with the second mortgage and thinks they can't forclose, what a dumbass.
She let her adult kid move back in rent free, just take it from my SSDI check, and I went 3 months without scripts till I sold some tools to [ay for them. I could go on and on but it is depressing me so bad and I want to sit them down tomarrow and let them know if there playing chicken with the bank I'm looking for a place to stay even if it is assisstant living, only I have some big tools worth a lot of money I wanted too give my kids so they can start thier own business.
I'm just totally convinced the stress has been bringing me to my kness's and I can't live like this anymore. I just wish I had someone to say I love you and want to take care of you if things go bad. I wish I had'nt taken my vows so seriously but that is just me and I wonder why me.
I hope I have what it takes to set them down and let them know I'm looking out for me and a home for me without them as I don't need them they need me. It is sad they both work part time making good money and I still make more than them combined and they want me to look for something part time. there is so much more to this but I'm getting tired and will once again pray to God for direction and have the backbone to talk and leave seeing as my SSDI check is not being spent on me and housing but as a party check as I lay here and am losing my house. I can only pray one of my kids will call adult protective services and get me a case worker. I just hate me right now and wonder where I lost my will to live anymore as I've seeded to tell everyone of the mind and money abuse I suffer everyday of my life. Some day will shine on me or me and nevermind will happen. Be good everyone and may you never endure what I haave been
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Oleblue--- this is terrible. I hated to read this, and I can hear the pain in your words. You have people who care about you. Always remember that. I don\'t have the answers but you are in my thoughts & prayers right now.
Dave,
You are to be admired for keeping your wedding vows. I understand the guilt behind growing up Baptist..... my husband has the same guilt, but for different reasons, and that\'s why we can\'t and never will live anywhere near his family. I understand you love your wife, I really do. I understand the fear of not wanting to be lonely. I can even relate to financial stress. But the way your life is going right now is no good........... you are sacrificing your health for someone who isn\'t willing to give you the time of day.... The best advice I can give you, is to talk to your adult kids, and ask them for help. You are such a kind person, this is the last thing you should have to put up with. Like KatDT, I don\'t have the solution, but I\'m praying for you and you always have support out here!