What I Fear !!!!

To everyone who is my friend I read every journal just don't have time to comment on all of them.I love all of you and love the support I get when I'm down and out and don't think to much of myself.Thank You all. I fear that I'm going to lose another child I have Ashli 19 and Rebecca 12. When Ashli goes out I can't sleep I call her all the time to see if she's alright.She gets mad.They went to the haunted house last night in Springfield,Mo.She's a very bright girl good head on her shoulders.It just doesn't help me I'm such a worrier I always have been more so since Justin passed. I miss my Justin its been 17 months and the pain is still intense.What  am I to do? I hate this sick feeling in my stomach and my heart being ripped out.I'm not much of a person anymore I try to enjoy things but I always end right where I have began.Please pray for me.It isn't easy as you all know.Take Care,Peace to all.jfm24,Vicki