What happened....
... My life is upside down. I have met someone I love being with. Yet when I am with her I am always thinking about someone else...someone I can never have yet yearn for with all of my existence. What the fuck is wrong with me. I finally meet someone who likes me and all I am wanting is someone else. :( Someone who will never, ever want me as long as I live. My life is totally fucked up. I want nothing more then to right now curl up into a ball and wake up 10 years in the past like nothing ever happened. /sigh I have so much to live for yet I just want it all to end right now. /enditall
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oh honey...i\'m so sorry! i wish you weren\'t feeling this way! i know we haven\'t managed to catch each other online, but i think about you a lot! you are such a sweet guy, and i wish so much happiness for you! please hang in there hon!
I was very drunk when I wrote this, yet most of it still stands. Thx for the support :)
I know how you feel--nothing is wrong with you when you like/love someone alot but yet try to meet/date others its HARD. Dont ever say never; trust me My ex I never think I coulda had in a MILLION yrz....stay positive; heck talk to both ya kno? dont be so hard on yourself :)