What happened....

... My life is upside down. I have met someone I love being with.  Yet when I am with her I am always thinking about someone else...someone I can never have yet yearn for with all of my existence. What the fuck is wrong with me.  I finally meet someone who likes me and all I am wanting is someone else.  :( Someone who will never, ever want me as long as I live. My life is totally fucked up.  I want nothing more then to right now curl up into a ball and wake up 10 years in the past like nothing ever happened. /sigh I have so much to live for yet I just want it all to end right now. /enditall