what going through my mind

I feel alittle depress today.I went  to lunch with my parent. Then we went to see some apartments. When we were looking at the apartments.I did not say anything.I always feel like I have to say more like other people.I cannot change that.I cannot be a sale like that woman.She is so at ease with us.I cannot do shit. I guess I do not really like myself because what other people are saying to me all my life. too quiet.I do not feel like eating dinner.I do not know is it because i ate a big meal or depress.Maybe both.