What do I do?

I believe I am losing my mind. I try to keep a smile on my face. But at this point, all I want to do is scream, cry, and start cutting again. I do not know how much stress a person can take on before they lose it. I went to the hospital a couple weeks ago and my blood pressure was through the roof. I had never even saw numbers that high. I was terrified. But, nothing has changed. In fact, life has only gotten more confusing and stressful. I really feel like I am spiraling out of control and I don't know what will happen to me if I do. There is no one to help me because no one understands what is going on with me. My husband wants to fix everything, but there is nothing he can fix, so I keep it from him. I don't tell my mother because there is nothing she can do but stress and she has enough health problems without me unloading on her. I am supposed to come here when I am feeling overwhelmed, but I don't. I don't do anything but stress. Some people call it living, but I feel like I am barely surviving. A person cannot possible function under this amount of stress and frustration. I wish, for once, my family could figure out a way out of this mess and get on top of the problems. If we could, I may actually be able to get this all under control and function like a relatively normal human being. I have no idea what the point of this was. I just had to get it all out before I truly exploded. My stomach is still all knotted up, though.