What do i do

I am alone well for the most part people care, God cares i am just so lax a dumb.  I keep getting myself into the same situations. It hurts i have a bestie friends some what of a family i am just lost. I want to go back to the temple but i am too week to get there. I am to scared to get there. I need help being my. I feel like i dont know who me is anymore. So much has happened. So much has changed. Oh God if you can accept this as a prayer please help me.