What Do I Really Need?...

I live 2 sides of my sole. On one side I am happy. I smile and greet people with smiles, hellos, thankyous ect...I do what I can do to help anyone. I love life. But on the other side of my sole, I am not as I seem. I am riddled with lonileness and depression. Unanswered questions, unsolved battles of my sole, what will make me truly happy?...I take care of my children and give them what they need and that brings me more joy than is inaginalbe...But yet today like so many other days, I am so lonely for companionship. Can it be so simple as this?...I wonder?...I will go on smiling and searching untill my questions are answered, however it may be...