What comes of it??

What comes of it What is the point.  Sadly I must write that I am so short on hope it is not funny.  I have kept my chin up through so much.  I keep on fighting, but there is no help.  None!!!!  I sold my TV today to keep up the fight.  I have sold off my aquarium stuff to do the same.  I truly dont have anything left to sell.  Not even my pain riddled soul would bring much.  Maybe a thumb tack and a used tube of chapstick.  I dont know how it will end but it wont be pretty.  It is true.  Nice guys finish last.  Of course they finish last.  They were too stupid to realize that the race was fixed and seem all suprised when they are screwed by an uncaring world.  I know god has a plan, but even this is a bit much.  No feelings, no love, no hope.  Sad, pity on me!!!!  What is next.  I see myself walking to work living off of relatives.  It could be worse, not much, but it could be.  Actually it could be alot worse.  I am sober and that is a blessing. Count your blessings. I live on...........