What an ass...

Well today I asked him what his plans are for the future...said I guess I'm moving out.  Yeah right..don't see that happening anytime soon.  Like an ass, I started to cry and pour my heart out again, saying how disrespectful it was she texted me at the concert, how he changed from the man I married to this person he is now, to him assuming things about me, how they had to talk and text when I wasn't around at the beach with our family, etc. and on and on.  Don't even know why I bother...I really don't think he cares.  His body language tells me that.  He even had the nerve to tell me that I knew Dena was going to be at the concert...how would I know that!?  He said I told him so and based on the emails I found.  I said would I have gone if I knew she was going to be there.  I didn't know at all...basically called me a liar, but I honestly didn't.  Again, he doesn't even know how to keep his own lies up and what he told whom.  He knows I do not believe a word he says and probably never will on most things.  He says he's not with her...yeah right...whatever.  Guess I have to accept their relationship regardless of how I want it.  Honestly, I asked if he was going to file and he said he didn't think so...didn't think it was an option.  I told him I was probably going to then...and he shook his head like he'd given up and really didn't care.  Guess I got my answer.  I have a few months to think but I don't ever think I could be with him again.  I deserved soooo much better than his lies, deceit, and adultery.  I treat him like a room mate.  We (don't know why I went but I needed Vitamin D) went to the pool together and didn't say much.  Just treated each other like strangers.   It's sad to be this way but in the same respect I hate myself for this because I'm becoming bitchy, and have a nasty look on my face all the time.  Jaded?  Yes.  I have/am building a wall that I don't think anyone could break down after this or will have a hard time trying.  Give a chance...they will have to move mountains for me to trust them.  He has done this to me and for that, I hate him for it.  For me...again, I feel like an ass for breaking down in front of him and letting him see me vulnerable, yet again.  Well...live and learn.  I guess that won't change.