what am i gonna do
Well I just found out some more crap out about my so called husband, I know i messed up while gambling, I lied , i spend alot of money and was in in debt, but I have been in recovery and really paying for what I have done, and now my husband is not paying the mortgage and spending money on gambling and boy this is quite embarrasing going to strip clubs, talking to other woman who he claims are just friends, and just plain out lying about everything, it has been years already and I have done nothing but try to make this relationship work, i go to work, pay the bills and go the gym and spend time with my family , i have done nothing but help everyone, i can't tell you the last time i even gambled that is how long ago it was, i don't know what to do, i have a dog and two who i love dearly and i can't give them up, i can't afford my place , unless i get another job times are tough i am thankful i have one good job, but things are rough. i don;t lie to him about anything and i can't take it anymore, he has treated me like crap mentally for years and i basically raised his kid who is gonna be 18 and 5 months ,and he has stolen from from me, jewelry , money and other things for years too, well i have not seem him since the middle of january, he took my xbox and wii, and disappeared. My husband has lied about changing and has not made an effort to do so, i think he blames me still for what i done, he blames me for his kids behavior how the heck is it my fault i raised him for christ sake. I guess I have turned into a detective he calls me columbo, i go on att.com and look up what number he is calling and if i would not have opened up the bank statement i would not have known about the money, which had to be going on for awhile. Wwell i guess i will go to bed now, of course tomorrow i need to function normally for work and then do what needs to be done to get through the day, i just want a normal life, and to be treated like a human being, i don't even know what it feels like to be held anymore from my husband and get a little comfort from him. i will talk to everyone one soon, i love you guys and i apologize once again for not being here much. i wish i never gambled or things might not suck right now.