What am I going to do now?
I tried to break my arm, my wrist and my fingers today. I'm losing everything around me. I went to my psychiatrist and he prescribed an anti psychotic. It just made me sleep for 2 1/2 days. But when I would walk around I was very uncoordinated on my feet.
Today mum told me she didn't want to talk to me or have to look at me. She accused me of taking more than I was prescribed but even after I proved that I wasn't she still didn't want to talk to me. She basically wants me to get out now. Also I can't take any meds whatsoever which can't be good for my system. Mum thinks they make me act like a total drunk.
I have one place to go but it's all the way in the Sunshine Coast and I hardly know the guy. But it's the one place I could keep my cats and my dog, so I'm definitely thinking about it. I just know I can't stay here anymore. Everything is so screwed. I've lost so much this year. I'm even starting to wonder if maybe mum got rid of Monty. I swear sometimes I feel like she gets off on my pain.
Anyway tomorrow I'm going to my clubhouse and tell them I'm in crisis mode and I need emergency accommodation with my pets. I'll explain the negative environment I'm in. Well I'd better head off to bed. Hope you're all happier and feel more secure than me.
Zemphyra
P.S. Please pray for Monty who has still not returned
Today mum told me she didn't want to talk to me or have to look at me. She accused me of taking more than I was prescribed but even after I proved that I wasn't she still didn't want to talk to me. She basically wants me to get out now. Also I can't take any meds whatsoever which can't be good for my system. Mum thinks they make me act like a total drunk.
I have one place to go but it's all the way in the Sunshine Coast and I hardly know the guy. But it's the one place I could keep my cats and my dog, so I'm definitely thinking about it. I just know I can't stay here anymore. Everything is so screwed. I've lost so much this year. I'm even starting to wonder if maybe mum got rid of Monty. I swear sometimes I feel like she gets off on my pain.
Anyway tomorrow I'm going to my clubhouse and tell them I'm in crisis mode and I need emergency accommodation with my pets. I'll explain the negative environment I'm in. Well I'd better head off to bed. Hope you're all happier and feel more secure than me.
Zemphyra
P.S. Please pray for Monty who has still not returned
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Good luck with the clubhouse - keep us up to date with how things are going. I just hope a change of environment gives you some respite and a chance to get things sorted.