What a weekend :)

Well , i had a pretty good weekend...Even if we did not do our shopping cause we were AGAIN angry at each other , we talked and discussed it the entire drive home and we actually sorted it out which is a first. I mean, just when i though everything is going back to square one, here this happens and i AM giving him the credit for saving the day. HE wouldnt stop talking, and when he stopped and say he gives up...There i started talking and then i didnt want to stop until its sorted. So still amazed at this matter, but i think it is attractive or beautiful for a woman when she sees that guy takes control, or accepts leadership because you definitely dont just GET it, you have to earn it like you earn respect. So Sunday, was just the highlight that we are trying, both of us and i dont know, but having hope helps a lot :) and even if i had a horrible weekend, Just knowing we conquered this together....its just soo rewarding :)

I even got a phone call today and saying i hope you have an awesome day babe , and i love you....just soothing words aint it ??

BUT i still wonder, is this just part of the hectic rollercoaster ride or is this for real...i mean, Im NOT bargaining on just happy times, but i WANT to have that tough times with you! Dammit! Why dont you understand?? LOL...Its rewarding at the end of the day. I doubt this last time you can JUST call troubled times...was more like WW2...but i think we are fighting a good battle and forming each other into a good design...a beautiful design...

Today, i have hope...and i feel in love. I am happy. I feel much stronger than i did ever before. I wont give up in what i believe and i need someone who will Love that about me....So is he still that guy? I just know he is, even if we are not together anymore....I know he is a good guy:) And an awesome dad despite all our fights and dark moments :)

Once again I hope this makes sense and dont make me seem as the typical female, falling for a guys sweet words (believe you me, this past couple of weeks was anything BUT sweet words) As a protecting mother, I want the best for my our lil one, even if that meant we had to Not live together he and ITianna comes first. She will not grow up with all these tension. She does not deserve our anger or whatever. I want her to have the chance of being happy
xxxx