What a day!!

Man, this has been a weird day. To start with, the weather is cold and dreary, which doesn't make anyone feel all that great. There was an earthquake in Illinois this morning and there were aftershocks felt throughout most of Iowa. Thankfully, I didn't feel them here because I think that might have sent me into a tail spin!!! I was talking to a customer on the phone and he was telling me all this shit about how the weather was just going to continue getting worse and worse because the earth is heading towards an elliptical planet that is throwing our polar ice caps off causing a barrage of nasty and wild weather. This freaked me right out!!! I suffer from severe anxiety so I already have feelings of impending doom and dread, this did not help things at all!!! I felt the tension coming on and with the help of Dr. Claire Weekes book Help and Hope for your Nerves, I was able to settle myself back down and really think about things for awhile. I can't waste time worrying about what might happen. I just have to take things as they come. When I went home for lunch, I stood out on the front porch, while smoking a cigarette, which is a habit I had given up for a good while, and just took in the sites. I took time to feel the rain and the cold wind. I was thankful at that moment that I was able to feel those things. I can't worry about earthquakes swallowing me into the earth or the earth being destroyed. I just have to keep moving throughout my days and thinking about things in the here and now.  I hope you all realize the strength you instill in me every single day. You are the reason I find the perseverence to keep moving along this path I call- life!!!! Thank you all so much. :)