What now?

So, I've spent my life basically going from one thing to another...able to learn most...do all well and never settling down and find "anything" I could get my teeth into enough to grow with it...wether career,  hobbies, friends, relations, etc.
I wonder if there's a borderline, borderline of autism.....it's just easier to read...and I am very thin skinned.  Though you may not know if you met me....  everyone always says I'm so capable and together and able.....but, inside I'm a basket case........have no close friends,  don't care for many of my relatives and am more comfortable around animals...lol    When I get overwhelmed I go to Busch Gardens and watch the apes and wonder if I was supposed to be a monkey and some how became a people....  I would so love to find a hobby, people, volunteer something that could become something I love to do.....and feel I've accomplished something on this earth.......hope all have a nice day........