Weptsday (by request)

Dearest,
    This sleep thing is beginning to bug me. I know, I complain every winter. I sleep 14 hours a day and walk around yawning. How much sleep can a woodchuck chuck for crying out loud?
  Made an appointment with Melissa for tomorrow to get my haircut. I'm getting to look way too much like Jeff Bridges. I hope she knows. If she doesn't and she asks I hope I can maintain at least a modicum of decorum, but if she starts to cry . . .
I went to the PO today and mailed everything, was not fun, ran into Rich (Meyer) there, nicest guy in the world, he doesn't know what to say to me either. I can tell that he's uncomfortable talking to me. Made all my phone calls, damn I hate talking on the phone. Trying to get Doogie lawyer to change my will post haste. Just try to explain to a 30 something that you could die any day. They just can't get it.
Spent some money online, I'm pretty much replacing all my underwear. I went through another pair of boxers, same as the last ones, so I decided to just replace them all, and the tee shirts too. Had to buy a new sweater vest because the pretty blue one has a hole and I have not a clue how to fix it. They don't carry that color anymore so I had to get a darker blue. I wonder if the dry cleaners could fix it? If not I wonder who could? Didn't get to the wrapping, I have to get up tomorrow to get to Melissa's so I should have a little more awake time. Probably just fool around on the internet now till I fall asleep.
Good night dear, Your Ken

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Be prepared for the haircut thing......my hairdresser knew Jim was sick but not that he had died. Have a VERY major meltdown when \"retelling my story\" when she asked how he was!!!! The good news is that the dry cleaners will either have an onsite seamstress or they will be able to send it out. The sleep thing.....can\'t figure that out myself. Thanks for the request thing.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Ken, it is very common to sleep a lot and still be exhausted-grieving is HARD work. No doing the mailing would not be fun, neither is trying to be around people who do not know what to say-they may mean well-but don\'t have a clue.New underwear is always a good thing.The vest, I\'m sure can be fixed, check with your dry cleaner-Hang On, it is worth it.-Pam
deleted_user
deleted_user

10 months now and I still cringe when someone who doesn\'t know asks....It happened 3 times last week! Movie rental time is here again and I guess some customers just haven\'t heard. The first few times it happened were really tough. One lady had a melt down herself in the store when I told her. But I am not sure looking like Jeff Bridges warrants getting a haircut. OK, maybe the Rooster Cogburn look is a little much, but any other time, he is great!
deleted_user
deleted_user

ok....your day sounds like one I had when I had to find out how to charge the lawnmower battery, and thenfind out how to get the blade to go..........etc....etc...etc.....these role reversal things are hard...........lol
I am still taking a pill to sleep and find myself wanting to go to bed earlier and earlier.........maybe it is because it gets dark so early......but I think I am just so sad without Norm here ............and nothing takes his place so I would just rather go to sleep.............lots of twists and turns in the path of grief.............dislike it immensely.......to say the least............
L
ciegee
ciegee

I\'m with you on the sleep thing. Can not seem to get that right in my case it is hard to get to sleep then I over sleep it is never right. Hate running into the people who do not know. Don\'t take much for me to have a meltdown.
Cie
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am still getting calls from clients of my husband\'s. I have to run his business for another year. Ug... I hate it. I had a man (a pastor) call me last night and he literally cried over the phone when he found out Jim had passed. Okay, then I cried too. Eventually I guess everyone will know. I give everyone the short story - he died in his sleep. That\'s all I can repeat.
Blessings - it\'s not easy to live it and even harder to relive it.
Linda
songsofthenight
songsofthenight

if your vest is knitted someone who does knit could fix it, may not be the same color but it could be mended. Hate it when someone who doesn\'t know, asks and then breaks down, then I cry...sleep is evasive here also, can\'t sleep at night until 3am, then up by 8am...not enough sleep but oh well that\'s the way it is for now....hugs, Sandi