Went to work

I made it to work today! I teach ballet and I love it usually. Getting up was really hard, but I did it. I didn't make it to the shower, but thats okay I made it. I survived class number 1 and was feeling spacy. Class two was really hard for me, the 3 and 4 year olds were extremely hard, and one of the girls fell over when I touched her, she just lost her balance when I was fixing her, but I had to fight a panic attack really hard my heart was beating so fast and I thought I was going to cry. Which really threw me off today, I ended class 15 minutes early on accident :( and the parents were like, uhhh? and I was like oh SHIT and the kids just never came back to my attention the rest of "class" their minds were GONE so that was really hard. I had a new girl in my third class whose mom drives me nuts, she used to dance at the studio. She talks a lot and I found myself having a hard time with that. My fourth class were older girls, who seemed to be as sad and bored as I was. I'm done for the day, I'm ready for a nap and to be back in my bed. But, I am proud of myself for making it through 4 hours of teaching.