Went to pick out Wyatts memorial stone today

Today was like living over the day that the dr. told me that Wyatt had no heardbeat. I was Horrible going to the monument place and having to pick out the stone for where your child is buried for ever.  I couldnt stop crying . I couldnt even tell the man what I wanted on it. I want a little boy fishing because he wouldhave been doing that with his daddy.  But the cemetery where he is at wont allow anything that is not angelic. So we are trying to have a artist draw some thing up to see if they would allow that on his stone, I just dont want flowers or a lamb. our little boy would have been fishing with his daddy and I just want to represent that. I really hope they let us.    So that left me very emotional all day and the fact that we should not be doing this at all we should be holding him in our arms and giving him kisses. I just couldnt pull it together.